The First 48

As in a criminal investigation, quitting smoking is at a critical point in the first 48. I made it. I haven't had a cigarette in three days. Not to say that I don't want one, because I REALLY do. My MD encouraged me to pick a time when my stress was at a minimum and there would be available support. I picked this weekend. 6:00PM on Friday was my last smoke. Ahhh, the good ole days. The medicine I am on works okay. I am a little on edge but not killing anyone. The bonus to the meds is that it gives me insomnia, constipation and gas. Okay, so it's hard to say if the medicine is causing the gas, but I'm going with that for now.

J. has been awesome. He's taken the children away from me and allowed me time to myself. God love him. He's also been watching and sniffing me. He doesn't think I know, but I do. I truly am smoke free. Why the hell would I be this crabby if I was smoking?

The weekend was good for the most part. We were busy enough that I had other things to occupy me. Two BBQs in two days. The first one was fine. A. got hit in the head with a bat, which caused some drama. She's fine. The second one would have been fine if I were not a full out freak show. My sister in law was there and just looking at her makes me mad. Her kids were ornery and so my kids decided it was okay to act like fools. My niece is a brat. She was deliberately trying to hurt C. I yelled at her and she shot me a look that stopped me in my tracks. She is SOOOOO lucky she is not my kid. We had to leave before my head exploded. I don't have much self control right now.

Tomorrow we are leaving to visit my parents. I am not sure this is the best idea but I'll either kill my kids here or there. Doesn't matter to me. Since 6:30 AM these kids have been fighting. I just screeched. I put my fingers in my ears and screamed," THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE WHEN I AM IGNORING YOU!!!" Yes, I'm 35.

Not much has happened on General Hospital, although there is quite a feud between Liz and Sam fans about Liz's baby. I did find an addicting quiz game that has helped me keep my sanity. Only one week to go. I never thought I'd miss my listening to crazy people as much as I do. Okay, so it's getting away from two short crazy people.

Wishing you clean air!